Sunday, April 3, 2011
55 litres of UFO's
So here it is..........this is my UFO tub......all 55 litres of it!! Now, if I'm going to be completely honest, there are more UFO's lurking about the place. There's the Burda skirt I started when I was 18 and couldn't finish as when I was 18 I wasn't as clever as I am now. Only trouble with that is I'm not as thin now as I was when I was 18. Still, I'll finish that skirt one day. That skirt reminds me of Uluru......when I was 16 I went on a school trip to Uluru and I was too scared to climb to the top. I felt like a failure. But I was terrified of heights and I just couldn't do it. So, when I was 26 I went back to Uluru. I had to conquer my fears and overcome my defeat....and I did it. I was still terrified and in sections I inched along on my bum (not a pretty sight and really embarrassing when the german tourists kept offering to help me lol) but I did it. I won. It was the greatest feeling. I'm nearing 40 now and it's been a very long time since I was 16 and terrified of being blown off the top of that great big rock. It's been a long time since I was terrified of all the pleats in that Burda skirt pattern too. It's been a long time since I went back and conquered Uluru. These days I have other things to worry about and as I approach 40 I'm thinking about how I don't want to carry the fears and failures of my past into the next half of my life. I want a new start, I don't want to procrastinate anymore. I want to be strong, happy, wise and loving. I want to follow my dreams and have no fear of failure. I want to have fun. I want to be the best version of myself that I can possibly be. So, this tub of UFO's has become the physical manifestation of my procrastination and it has to be completed. I also need to find that Burda skirt. I know it's here somewhere........and when I'm done I will feel like I've won. Like I'm ready to move forward and onto better things. I'm really looking forward to seeing the bottom of that tub!